GRUDGE

by manqué

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cassette tape out of 100. self released june 7th 2012. now available on Rage Bailey Records & Sour Tapes! ragebaileyrecords.storenvy.com sourtapes.storenvy.com

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released June 6, 2012

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Track Name: bad friends
i was always there for you
now i'm embarrassed that i stood up for you
thought you got it, you don't get it at all
how can you do the things you do
and how can you stand you?
cuz i can't, and i can't believe this
to me, friendships are more important
than getting drunk and making out
but i'm starting to think, that i'm the only one
who feels that way sometimes
and i'm starting to think that honesty
is non existent
fuck your deception
i'm not sorry anymore
i hope you're sorry now
glad you weren't the death of me
but i swear, you almost were
Track Name: live in lonesome ache
i had a dream all of my friends hated me
i never woke up
i had a dream you were sick, i make you soup
but you never called
now i'm scantily clad on church steps
wishing i believed in anything at all
besides maybe caffeine and disappointment
there are leaves on the ground
but they are not the right ones
where have i been and what have i become
there are hands to hold
but they are not the right ones
there are hands to hold, but they're not yours
i fell too hard, like i always do
and i never left my room
and i couldn't stop writing you
i thought about calling but i had nothing to say
i thought about begging you to stay
my friends think i overreact
and i can never relax
i thought about begging
i thought about asking
i thought about everything
but i had nothing to say
i wish i still believed in anything
besides disappointment
and regret
Track Name: i hate everyone
the only ones i still respect
are the ones who haven't hurt me yet
but they would, if i gave 'em the chance
you've got no chance
because i'm over it before it starts
because there's no one who won't make me
feel bad
and i spent too much time feeding
a dog that always bites
and i don't forgive
i'm in love with everyone
who i can never stomach talking to
but i hate everyone
because i can't believe the shit we all do
but i am trying
i hate the way i look
and i hate the way i feel when i look great
cuz no one appreciates it
no one takes me out
but i'm always exaggerating and
complaining, so i'm not surprised
i guess there's no moral
i guess i'm just scared that i'm losing mine
and i guess there's no need for explanation
i'm just sick of being alone
but we're all the same
Track Name: fuck you for making me doubt myself
i'm sick of saying sorry cuz i'm not
and i'm sick of always feeling bad
i'm sick of you telling me you'll always be there
when i call you, you are not
i've been told that my eyes are a much
prettier blue when i cry
but i'm sick of it always coming from
the one who is making me
sorry you think i overreact
i guess sometimes i just get like that
but if i'm sorry for anything at all
it's that i'm sorry you are not
i have everything that i need
but i don't need everything that i have
and i don't need you acting like
you give a damn, if you don't
i don't have everything that i want
but i guess i don't want you
if you don't need me
i don't have everything that i want
but who does?
i wish i could get everyone in the same room
who's ever said they'd love me forever i'd say
how's your new lover and life without me?
but oh, i wouldn't wanna hear the answer
i wish i could get everyone in the same room
who's ever said they'd always be there for me
i'd say where have you been?
i'm sick of saying sorry cuz i'm not
and i'm sick of always feeling blue
i'm sick of you telling me you'll always be there
when i call you, there's no answer
i've been told that my eyes are a much
prettier blue when i cry
but i'm sick of always being the one
i've been told that talking to me
is like talking to a wall
and i've been told by my best friend
that he doesn't care, no not at all
if i make it through the night, it's no wonder
i can't take a compliment
and you wonder why, i can't sleep at night
while i wonder how, anybody can
Track Name: nothing was beautiful
dear friend, please don't say
that you wanna die to me, cuz just in case,
you forgot, i'd do anything for you
and i just wish, i could make you happy
but when you call me crying at 4 in the morning
i wish, there was anything, i could say
to make you stop
cuz i know she's lying, and i know how you feel
cuz i've been there, it's how i know her truth isn't real
i've been fooling myself into thinking
when i find myself sobbing at 3 in the morning
there'd be anyone here i could call
who'd say "come over, i know how you feel"
lately my friends, call me crazy
straight to my face
lately my friends, call each other stupid
and i can't stand the looks on their face
cuz i had a lover once
he screamed the same things at me
and he was serious
so i don't find it funny
and i don't know how you do
wish i could make you
understand, the weight of your words
wish i could show you
the look on my face
when it's 2 in morning, or something
and there's no one to call
and there's no one at all
who knows where i am
there's no one to call
and there's no one at all
who knows how i feel